Clearly, I'm a melting pot of random thoughts.

Life is a curious thing.

On an unrelated note, today is Tuesday, the day before Wednesday which coincidentally just happens to be the day before the Resident Evil 5 Zombie March/Midnight Launch. So I’m excited about that. Other Zombie festivities are taking place on campus, such as the incredible remake of Shaun of the Dead and they also have me pretty stoked.
As far as school and the world of academia, things are fine. I feel like I have most of my stuff organized and all that jazz. So what if I don’t go to ever single class meeting. Isn’t the final grade/end result the only thing we all care about anyways? Sigh, I’m trying, what do you want from me?

I still feel as if there’s something missing, and I can’t even clearly type them now, so don’t ask me to explain. It’s like an untouchable, invisible ‘something’ and I can’t quite pinpoint it. But I feel as if it’s something that which I desire more than anything, something that I desperately need to have yet it is always out of my reach.

Perhaps I’m simply restless, and bored of waiting for the next big thing to happen in my life. Or perhaps my zombie fascination has allowed my mind to subconsciously wish for a post-apocalyptic lifestyle. Whatever it may be, it haunts me. And there is nothing that confuses and frustrates me more than an unknown, yet very present item that is always out of my reach and accompanied by the lack of means to get it. I don’t know…. I feel happy now, I guess. Or maybe I’m not happy at all. Regardless of my status, that ‘item’ still eludes me. I unrealistically wish that I had more control over my life or more specifically, time, so I could possibly obtain this mystery item. Maybe just fast forward a year or two and take a peek into what my life holds for me in the future. That would be nice, because the simple fact of not knowing what is coming next is enough to drive me insane.

So I’ll keep the keep the melodic trance and the hardcore gaming going till I can find that which I require to be satisfied and whole. And as far as discussions regarding said mystery item... dont expect anything other than vague messages and ramblings. You dont know any more about the future than me. If you did, then we could talk.

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